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As a mother

Hello

It is Aya


It is late night, and I am updating a blog from my cell phone.


Today, after coming back from the soccer practice,


My husband ( head coach) told me before putting the kids into sleep



Regarding the last blog, there is a story that continues


For the NODA Racing Academy collaboration camp,


We are bringing 9 selected children from FC Reale


The selected children from the final decision was only 7 children



We could not decide to choose two others, because


It may be too generous,


But we wanted to give one more chance to the children


All coach members agreed to do


That teaching them about the importance of never giving up, and what it is to never give up,


We wanted to observe their attitude afterward and make the final decision for the last 2 players



What we decided to tell the children, is that


Within the following three days, the children have to speak out their desire that they want to go


And we will do interview after one week.




The qualification is above 5th grade ( age 10)


And my daughter, Akane, is also in 5th grade



But at the previous first selection, she was not selected by the coach members


My daughter is always shy


Often in soccer games, she fear to make mistake in her performance


I am wondering whether she is getting this stubborn and reckless blood that I have .... ?





But such girl have came to her father (head coach) , as the first one to come, and said !!!!



" I want to join the camp !!"


she said


" I truly want to become a professional soccer player, and make everyone happy "


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Honestly, I was very very happy.


All the coach members of FC Reale Japan have children.


And coaches are most strict to their own children


I think they are going through many kinds of feelings as a parent and child relationship


Which is also the same in our household.



Every child wants to dominate his/her parents


They want their parents to only focus on themselves


They want themselves to be their parents' number one


But


During practice, they have to call their father as "coach"


And Akane's father is always thinking about Reale


He is thinking about Reale soccer whether he is awake or asleep



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And her mother is always away from home




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Not just home, but I am not even in Japan



Even if they want to hear my voice through phone, they cannot even do that


Even when I am at home, I am busy doing work, or at rest for a broken body from the strain of long trip



I question myself about my roll , what is a


" Mother "




I am not able to do mother's job sufficiently


Especially that children is able to sense the direction of their parents' focus


I think they are going through an enormously lonesome feelings





But no one knows


What is the happiness for children, and what is the right answer




That is why, I want them to develop their spirit.



Regardless of the environment and situation they are in,


If they could feel the happiness


And if they could live with the feeling of


Thankfulness


Then all the things they go through will be the right answer!





My thinking is that


Right answer is something that should be made by yourself



That is why, my daughter's action this time was a great, enormous surprise and joy


And especially


" I want to make everyone happy "



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When I heard it, I was thinking that she will find out some day


That this particular feeling of her will actually bring happiness to her life



Being raised by such a neglecting mother,


I was very very happy to see that


Gradually, but in a definite way,


She is learning the part that I wanted her to know the most





In such late night, I really wanted to write about this


Excuse me for writing as a fond mother :)



Being allowed by my children and husband to experience a life as a mother,


I am truly thankful from my heart


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But I am definitely disqualified to do the mother's job ^^;


That is why, I want to always remind myself


That I will always


Be fully aware of my children's feelings!





Even raising my own children, I cannot do everything by myself


Anything that I do really cannot be done by myself


That is why,


Thank you so much !


For everyday


Full of thankfulness !




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