It's been 3days since we arrived to Tottori
These days has been so fulfilling, it doesn't seems to be only 3 days
Junko san is our wonderful supporter in our entire schedule and also caring us mentally
She really giving us much hospitality in every detail
and most of all
really understanding our feelings in coming to a place completely new
Her support means so much to us!!!
And the father of the house that provided us a space and living
Even in his busy time,
He took me to the Daisen Mountain and such places
And telling me many many stories!!
This day, he also took me into the wilderness for a retreat
For me, there is not a place better than nature to feel the happiness
Feels like trees
are cheering for me
But this time,
Not only nature,
But many and truly many kind of people are cheering for us!!
"Keep it up!!"
Far away from London, Daisuke san is supporting us in many ways
Through Daisuke san, through Junko san,
many people are giving us cheers!
Through blog and facebook,
so many cheers and motivation from people!
And even since we arrived here in Tottori,
We were given cheers from many people for our success!
I dont have the ability to translate everything to Santosh
But I want him to feel all these support from people
Telling him, "GANBARE"! (means, "keep it up" "do your best")
Santosh, being put into a team without ways of communication,
must be very stressful for him
He have to assume
all the practice menu and instructions from coaches
by observing other's movements and facial expression
and the style of soccer is completely different between Nepal and Japan
It was very difficult and depressing for him to keep up with the speed and style of Japanese soccer
But every often, the player, Mr.Okamoto continues to make communication with Santosh!
Even spliting his focus from his own practice,
He has been supporting Santosh throughout the entire practice!
Really and truly has been a great support for Sansosh!
I wish kids could also grow up to be a wonderful player like him!
I would like to write something very honestly
This challenge for Santosh is very challenging and difficult to succeed
It has been 4 years since people were telling me his performance has been declining
And for the past 8 months, the Nepal soccer league has been recessed
In such condition, Santosh is making this trial
In Nepal, he is a hero
Everyone knows about him
Which must make him to be proud of himself
and people would treat him very respectfuly
But being such person, Santosh is rebuilding his body again
And coming from the top, he had to experience a great sense of failure
Yesterday's practice was in match situation
He could not catch up with other's movements
Was merely out of stamina
That he became so depressed about himself
I could not find a word to tell him...
The father of the house trying to refresh his feelings, asked him to go out for site seeing
but he didn't even have that energy to go out
"Did the coach told you if I can join the practice tomorrow?"
"When do we have to leave?"
In Nepal, Santosh was the youngest player to become a professional,
And he is making the record of most goals in Nepal, almost reaching to 100 goals in a season
A person who has been rewarded many times,
is being so lost of confidence that he was saying words of his broken heart.
"Most of all, I dont want to make you spend any more money on me
With my ability, I cannot make this happen"
Being so depressed,
at that night,
our host gathered people to run a encouraging party
Kids joined the event wanting to meet with Santosh
And even other guests at the restaurant encouraged Santosh to make an effort!
"Santosh Dont give up!!!"
And the father of the house,
"hold on Santosh!"
"Even if you think that you cannot make it,
There is a big difference between
Giving all that you have,
And simply giving up right now!"
After the dinner,
Santosh's feeling was moving up and down rapidly
I called to my husband for advice
Oni coach (my husband) was saying
to only focus on the strength he has, to performe his keen instict
Being told, Santosh said,
"I understand what eveyone tells me
I understand their feelings as well.
But today, I gave out my 100% performace
That is why I don't think I can make this happen.
And I dont want to waste your money and time anymore"
Telling me with such regretful expression
But I asked him,
"Then do you really understand my purpose here?"
"To improve my soccer skill?
To do for the children?
To accumulate my experience? etc"
But I told him he is wrong
"Ofcourse that is part of it, but none of them is the main purpose!"
He was telling me I was being like a teacher in a class room and he hated it.
He was mentioning that he is regretful for not doing a training during his off season.
But I continued,
"What I truly want from you,
regardless of the situation,
in any moment,
I want you to choose to be an example for the children,
to overcome an obstacle, to make an effort, to hold on,
And to tell them what you learn from your experience
That is why, YOU HAVE to overcome this challenge right now!
Saying what you should have done or saying it is impossible,
What is it that you can do now?
What is it that you can proceed from your yesterday?
By controlling your mind
And controlling your heart
Tomorrow's 100% can be more than today
So please do it!!!
If you give up right now,
Then that would really be the waste of my entire effort!!
Now is the time Santosh,
started to slam on his chest, saying
He continued over and over
To do more today than yesterday
To do more tomorrow than today
If we could renew the record of making effort everyday,
Then we wll never regret!!
And what I also discussed with Santosh is that
There's dream, hope and purpose
If we make our dream to be our hope
Then making our hope to be our purpose
And if we continue to make 100% effort,
Our dream will become our reality.
But every time our dream changes,
Our difficulties and challenge become bigger
Then gradually we have less time to feel the fun
But our joy in life becomes bigger and bigger
Today, Santosh was making his best effort!!!
He turned around his feelings, and stayed strong in his heart
To do all that he can do now
I think Santosh is going through so much and rapid growth in his heart
Sports, and not only in sports,
When a person truly commits his/her serious effort,
To become so eager for the purpose,
humans have the potential to make a growth beyond our imagination
A man with great character
He prepared us with the video record of Gainare Tottori
And Santosh is studing this video all day long!
To make our best effort,
We are truly given so much strength from many people!!
I hope this strength will also reach to everyone!!!!
With my pray
With my heart of
I went to ring the bell at the Mt.Daisen
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